When I was a child we took regular trips to the ocean. I have crystal clear memories of beach time. Poking jellyfish with sticks we found on the beach. Running around, screaming and laughing. Collecting sea shells.
I also remember the waves. I remember plunging into the ocean and laughing. I remember standing in the surf, and the vertigo that would hit as my feet sunk deeper into the sand as the water rushed over them, and then back again.
I was a strong swimmer — when you live in Arizona, you apaprently spend most of your life in a pool pretty much from birth — and I also remember doing battle with massive waves. Diving underneath them and through them. And then sometimes, one would get me. I’d underestimate its strength, and it’d toss me around, drag me against the sand and rocks, and then spit me out somewhere on the beach. I learned early on to just go limp in those moments — to resist the urge to panic and struggle and fight. To just surrender to something so much larger than me that has its own intelligence and flow.
The ocean is still one of my favorite things, and that memory of being tossed around is certainly a solid metaphor for the Taurus-Scorpio axis. Life and death. Calm, grounded centeredness vs. turbulent, tumultuous and chaotic emotion. Sitting in the sun, listening to the rippling of the grass in the wind, eating some good cheese and bread and wine vs. walking into the sunset, into the shadows and darkness and being consumed by the dark.
In Taurus, we can get moments of reprieve and simple appreciation of the senses, stocking up on comfort that can tide us over when the storm begins again, whether by force or by choice.
Of course, Taurus has its shadows as well. Stubborn. Restrictive. Narrow-minded. Overly focused on possessions and possessing. Scorpio does that last one in spades as well – the two energies understand jealousy well. But in Taurus the response stems from fear of what sits across the circle: Death. Loss. Grief. Taurus is about survival and holding on (to life!). In its distortions, it becomes a highly internalized and stuck energy structure. The frog in the well who assumes the one patch of blue it can see is the entire world. Hunkered down. Stuck.
Another reason I love the ocean: It is water sculpting earth. Waves pounding (or even lapping) on the shore are slowly but surely over long swaths of time breaking earth down into ever finer grains of sand. Renewing. Regenerating. Transforming into something else. This is the truth of the Taurus-Scorpio polarity. All is change…but sometimes it’s slow and sometimes it’s sudden. The waves WILL transform whatever they touch. We cannot stay stuck as we are forever.
So we have this Full Moon on Wednesday, May 10 at 2:42pm (PDT) that emphasizes this Scorpio/Taurus axis. Sun in Taurus. Moon in Scorpio — where it’s considered to be “in its fall.” The Moon’s sensitive underbelly proclaims to be in anguish in the claws of the Scorpion.
Pardon my bias, but having a natal Moon in Scorpio has been one of the biggest gifts of my life. It allows me to go deep, to navigate the intense waters of emotion that threaten to sweep so many others away. To hold space for others going through intense grief processes. Scorpio relates to the depths, and in its highest form is able to hold space there and let the emotion swarm through and then let it go again without developing a compulsive need to keep digging, keep understanding. Where it becomes problematic is in that compulsiveness — becoming deeply suspicious, always uncovering raw nerves, never feeling secure.
Taurus, then, is the anchor. Through the senses, through our relationship with our bodies, we are able to take root deep within, valuing ourselves enough to hold space through the storms of Scorpio. Remembering to breathe, to bring it back to the here and now. Taurus relates to the heart chakra and to infinite love and compassion — the ways we hold ourselves and others in nurturance and stability because we’re worth it.
So on the one hand, for this Full Moon, I want to encourage you to stop and slow down and take some deep breaths and time out for yourself. Seems like good medicine.
But at the same time, I dare say there will be some of us feeling the Scorpio energy more — the intense emotion welling up, intensity in relationship, in sexuality, feeling the need for something to transform or shift, and maybe the deep breaths are good aftercare — but so is diving in and seeing what is being revealed by the intensity of the emotion.
This Full Moon can help us to feel at peace with intensity. It can help us to identify emotional uprisings and discern what it is we need, and what it is we value. It can give us the boost we need to ensure we take practical steps to meet the desires of our souls. The moon is supported by a sextile from Pluto – supporting its transformative qualities. Ritual, baths, sex, reflection, or any combination of those find their homes in this energy.
I’m reminded of one of my favorite poems by Rilke…
Quiet friend who has come so far,
feel how your breathing makes more space around you.
Let this darkness be a bell tower
and you the bell. And as you ring,
what batters you becomes your strength.
Move back and forth into the change.
What is it like, this intensity of pain?
If the drink is bitter, turn yourself to wine.
In this uncontainable night,
be the mystery at the crossroads of your senses,
the meaning discovered there.
And if the world shall cease to hear you,
say to the silent earth: I flow.
And to the rushing water speak, I am.
(Sonnets to Orpheus – Part 2 – #29)
I’ll be posting a guided visualization for this Full Moon on my Patreon page shortly. It’s available to anyone subscribed at the $20+ levels. It runs about 15 minutes and can help with grounding and centering — and also with letting go of or transforming something you’re ready to release. To obtain a copy, just send payment (between $10-15) to me using www.paypal.me/AquarianSpirals. Or become a monthly subscriber via Patreon.
And as always, if you’re a astrology client of mine and would like help locating where this lunation falls in your chart (and therefore the areas of life being directly impacted), just email me.