Full Moon in Libra: Parallel Passions

This Full Moon…well…It’s a gateway, for sure.

So many gateways these days. Each precious, transformative. Sometimes rife with heartache, sometimes wide-eyed wonder. For me personally, it’s usually a good mix of both.

Katy Paulson Vulnerability is a Stance of Heart

Art by Katy Paulson

Saturday’s Full Moon in Libra (exact at 5:36AM Pacific Time) puts us right in the heart of balance. Which is, of course, never a static process. We stand in the middle of two polarities, one with arms out, beaming heart love at the thought of freedom, autonomy and personal initiative — a genuine sunshiney care bear stare; the other with arms out extended towards the other, not for ecstatic hugs, but to calmly look them in the eye and say “I hear you. Your view is important. Let’s talk about it.”

Or perhaps we’re feeling like placing our arms across our heart, in a kind of protective stand-off. Ah, the many faces of the archetypes.

Full Moons always invite the tension of the opposites. They are times for revelry, for dancing naked in the woods, magic created with others. Sometimes the only way to work with that tension is to feel the ways it hums and beats through the body. Something has come to full power. Whatever seed was planted at the New Moon two weeks ago. Or, if we look at expanding cycles, whatever seed was planted in the lunar cycle six months ago, when the polarities were reversed (Full Moon in Aries).

By their very nature, each and every Full Moon is associated with the polarity of Libra and Aries. This is the natural opposition in the zodiac, and oppositions inherently have something to do with extending out to the other. Those born on or near a Full Moon have lifetimes that emphasize relationship-oriented activity.

One of the keys to relationship — if I might make yet another very oversimplified generalization — lies in balancing autonomy with connection.

There’s a crisis indicated with this lunation, however. A cardinal square between the both Sun and Moon with Mars and Saturn in Capricorn. An adjustment needs to be made between who we are in the world, how we feel, and what we’re building. Our emotional nature, indicated now by the Moon in Libra, and our solar nature, indicated by the Sun in Aries, are trying to reach balance between self and other. Mars-Saturn in Capricorn, however, are pushing our conditioning to the surface, forcing us to look at the structures of our lives, the way these structures and this conditioning distort and support the desires of our egos, and the ways we’re rushing into initiating things that need more time, support, or re-structuring.

Structure and time. Why are you pushing things that are not ready for you just yet? Why are you trying to force something that is resisting? What are the power struggles you’re engaged in, and what are they unlocking for you? Are you projecting? Are you externalizing? Are you continuing to engage something that is causing you pain? Why?

None of those questions are to be posed with judgment or as challenges. There are no right answers here, just room for reflection and wondering. Bringing awareness.

We have to remember that Mercury is also retrograde now, right up near that Aries Sun. This means that some of the secrets might be unlocked as we review and reimagine the ways we initiate, how we uncover and act on our personal desires, what the place of anger is in the mix.

This is even more so because Black Moon Lilith (the Mean version, at least) is tied into this lunation as well. She’s sitting not too far off of Saturn and Mars, also in Capricorn. As Lilith is already linked to themes of repression — in this case, the repression and casting out of parts of ourselves we have learned to despise — this energy might be churning and throwing some wild cards into the mix.

Our repressed parts often get air even more often than the parts of ourselves we love. They control the show because they have the benefit of being unconscious. That shit’s powerful, y’all.

When Lilith wants attention, she is not subtle. She screeches and howls. She laughs maniacally when you attribute her deeds to something outside yourself. Because you are just missing the point. You’re contributing to an increase in ways the most primal and vital parts of you are being repressed and disowned to your own detriment. And that primal energy has been driven nearly insane by the ways we refuse to listen to its wisdom.

The power you cast out as being other is oftentimes actually your own.  For better or worse. In the coming days then, better to take note if not action to reclaim what you’re casting out, my loves. I’m so sorry we’ve all been through the restrictive and distorting paradigm of patriarchal rule. And yet… there are lessons to be learned in the reclaiming of Self… and Other. This Libra Full Moon allows us a glimpse into so many mirrors. What do we need to reclaim? What parts of ourselves have we disowned that we need to learn to be at peace with? To integrate?

We have to love the other as we love ourselves and vice versa because in the grand scheme of things, there is no difference. Because we often can’t know the difference between what we are projecting and what is external (and most of the time, there is a lot of overlap). Sometimes it seems like archetypal energies such as Lilith (or Eris or Kali) are fueled by their frustration at trying to hard to get us to listen to our own primal urges — only to have us disown them, or cast them out.

One more thing? Many folks have a lot on their plates right now, all of it clamoring around to be finished Right Now. Be realistic. Be disciplined. Try to prioritize, and recognize that you can’t do everything at once. Ah, yes. There we are again: Balance.

 

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Pisces New Moon: Integration Through Separation

Welcome to the last New Moon of the astrological year. In it, the vision of a prism splitting light apart and arranging it into rainbows. Light and matter participating together flawlessly. Healing. Health. Wholeness. At the end of the zodiac, in Pisces, we are getting ready to begin again in deep acknowledgment that time and life are not linear paths but part of ever widening circles.

fullsizeoutput_cd1This New Moon can bring us fully into presence and flow. It is also, however, a powerful portal for transmuting, or perhaps just accepting and releasing, our pain.

There is some pain too deep to be accessed. Some pain too close to the surface to be buried. There are some wounds that are so much a part of us that we cannot heal them, but instead must learn to accept, embrace, reveal and subvert.

This New moon brings us in touch with what we are ready to release and surrender as well as what we are learning to accept. Sometimes it can be difficult to discern. But there can come a time when instead of continuing to dig and attempt to heal and process, transmute, transform…we just…say…mercy. We give in.

And we resist the temptation to become defined by this wound that just won’t go. But we nestle it within us, alongside all our other identities and constructs, using it as a tool, but not making it the center.

This New Moon speaks of endings. The endings of endings. It’s all kinds of waning, and releasing at multiple levels. And yet there it is: Chiron right there in the mix. Chiron teaches us that even the most masterful of healers have wounds that will not go. This does not make them victims, however. It does not make them toil and grovel — at least not in perpetuity. It becomes their strength. They learn to accept and say, “this is a way that I am different. A way that I will never be like the rest of you.

But yet… through my difference, I have learned a new way of doing things. I’ve learned about the blessing of the wound, its sacred nature, and the ways it brings me into greater health. I can no longer risk the harm it does to my soul to fight back against something so crucial to my nature.”

Chiron in Pisces has been teaching us about the deepest wounds we have: the wounds of separation. Not from lovers or family, necessarily. Wounds of separation from source. Which are essentially wounds of separation from ourselves. Because of lies we’ve been told that burrowed into our souls, impressing us with one fatal fallacy: that our bodies and flesh are sinful and wrong.

And that Spirit, in addition to being separate, is higher and better and that we are undeserving of it.

We then twist through lives in which we are seeking redemption and forgiveness, whether consciously or not, as a consequence for some really bad take on an age-old myth. Mythologies that speak of separation as a vital part of the cosmic dance are everywhere. Mythologies that fling the blame for this separation onto the shoulders of humans — typically female humans — are few and far between. And yet the latter rule our entire worldview, be we religious or not.

There is insanity here, in the Piscean void. We see madness when the veil is lifted. Just look around. There comes a point, however, when it all gets so senseless that we put down the sword, we stop the constant self-criticism, in a moment of re-awakening to love. However that happens, in whatever form that takes.

So for this New Moon, release. Surrender your patterns of hate, the ways they flow out and then in again. Bless those core wounds and feed them with eternal and unconditional love. Accept. Renew. Bask in the rainbow. Connect to source. Purify, float and imagine what true freedom would look like for you, and maybe for all of us…

…and make a wish…

 

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Jupiter Retrograde: Buoyancy & Death

Time for another little tide change, ya’ll. So let’s break it down a bit.

On the one hand we have Jupiter.  Traditionally known as the deity of benevolence. Luck! The spinning wheel. Society, culture, travel and philosophy. A big-bellied laugh and…could it be a white beard, too?

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Death & The Wheel of Fortune from the Thoth Tarot deck. Along with some magnetized hematite, pyrite and green goldstone.

On the other hand we have Jupiter taking a tour through Scorpio. Sign of death. Chaos. Sex, magic, drugs and the occult. Transformation. The barrel of the wave. Also potentially laughing, but… perhaps a bit maniacally. And at you rather than with you.

These are stereotypical depictions of these archetypes. Cliches because there’s truth there. But as with every archetype, they twist and turn through our experiences of them, revealing greater depths all the time. Archetypes just can’t be pinned down. Or fully understood, really.

I’ve often looked at depictions of Jupiter with some degree of skepticism. There’s an inherent distrust there that I don’t quite understand. In my days of being a young(er) astrologer, I started to notice something. My Jupiter transits weren’t always notable, but when they were it was usually for not-so-great reasons. Stripped of qualified words like luck and joviality, Jupiter is about expansion. Sometimes things have to be pushed out in order to make room for expansion. Sometimes that pushing out feels like loss.

On October 10, 2017, Jupiter moved from Libra into Scorpio, where it will stay until November 8, 2018. What did we see with the shift? The birth of the Me Too movement. Jupiter took his magnifying glass and put it right over the heart of what our society has repressed for so long. No more! Abuses of power and sexual perpetrators being exposed left and right.

Our culture has a way of avoiding death and sex. This avoidance is highly problematic being as sex and death are arguably the two most important and universal aspects of human life. But there it was: humans coming forward in droves, publicly admitting that they, too, had been sexually assaulted.

What did we realize? The absolutely pervasive nature of sexual assault and misconduct. In a more nuanced way, we also realized that sexual power plays are so insidious that many don’t even realize they’ve been assaulted because verbal assault has become a part of everyday life.

You mean walking down the street and not being told to smile is an option? You mean it’s OK to feel uncomfortable when someone hoots and hollers at me for what I’m wearing? I don’t just have to accept it? Yes, all of these things are forms of sexual violence.

Like that, the collective pain body was magnified and exposed. There’s Jupiter. In Scorpio.

This transit is calling on us to expand upon our beliefs about sex and sexuality. Responsible, ecstatic and transformative sex requires that we have knowledge and wisdom — those are Jupiter’s realms — about sex. Knowledge and wisdom about sex require that we know about our own body, what we find pleasurable, and how to engage in sex in ways that are safe for our physical health.

But more than that — sex is at its essence an emotional act. Through its association with Scorpio, we understand that the act of merging with another human can be terrifying, but also transformative at the most profound levels imaginable.

My belief in sex is that it can be used as a vehicle to facilitate healing processes rather than power. But for that to be the case, we have to explore and experiment and experience. And we have to understand how sex effects our own emotions. And be honest about that.
Jupiter in Scorpio shines a light on and magnifies the underworld. It’s expanding taboos so that we can face them and unveil them to reveal truth, or at least our current beliefs about truth. At its core, the drive is to help us understand our relationship to Death with a capital D, but those beliefs can be made more general: how do we deal with loss? Change? Transformation? Sex — which is in fact the little death? What hides in our shadows – personally and collectively?

Time for a personal belief: our globalized capitalist culture is way too enmeshed with a death cult (ahem: Christianity). On the one hand, we’re obsessed with death at some very surface levels. Look at our Blockbusters, the ways we glorify the hoarding of money so that it can pass on to our children (or just make us worth something).

On the other hand, we have been stripped of mythologies, religions and ways of understanding that help us to orient to death — the ONE thing that will happen to each and every one of us. These denials and repressions essentially lead to us using the earth as a sewer without regard for the fact that without a healthy environment, we… well, we die. Our species just flops the fuck over. Whether or not we take time to think about it or prepare for it in ways that actually matter.

Yes, I’m questioning whether preparation for a $5000 coffin is a way that really matters.

As Jupiter retrogrades through Scorpio (from March 8 – July 10, from 23-13 degrees), we have an opportunity to review our beliefs. Our beliefs about death, sex, power, emotional self-reliance (especially in times of chaos or transformation), shared assets, our own shadows…

We get to consciously reveal what needs to be exposed, which is a much easier task than having someone or something else reveal it for us. At least in my experience it is.

Speaking of exposure. I wrote a weekly column for two years that was largely comprised of personal narrative about these kinds of topics. I exposed myself over and over again. Why? Well, because writing that way is just easier for me — telling my own personal stories to show illustrations of astrological concepts just takes less time than trying to generalize and sound like I know what I’m talking about outside my personal stuff.

Point being: I haven’t done much of that style of writing since I left that position in the fall of 2016. But this Jupiter in Scorpio stuff hits home, so here it goes.

I have a whole lotta chart action between 15-29 degrees of the fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, Aquarius). This means that when any of the slower moving planets tour those spots, I get to learn a lot. Jupiter’s not super slow, but given that it takes 12 months to travel, it gives enough time to pay attention to what’s being revealed and healed.

As Jupiter heads towards its station this evening (Thursday, March 8), it’s riiiiiiiiight there in the heart of my karmic story. I’ve been feeling it for a few weeks now, just taking note. Ok, and sometimes clenching up and throwing a temper tantrum and texting my AstroSupport Team (two friends of mine) to say, “Ack! No! It’s just so much roiling Scorpio energy! The intensity! I’ve loved feeling more dried out! Ack! No!”

Last time a heavy hitter move through this space — those three years of Saturn in Scorpio — I had to face pretty much every fear I had. I was hoping for just one or two, but…nope! It all got dredged up. The more dramatic sides of me have some PTSD. But when it comes down to it that transit served to reinforce my emotional foundations, and my inner parent is pretty on task now. At the very least, I know when I’m being emotionally triggered and know not to fly off the handle.

I decided to take a look at what was going on in my life the last time Jupiter was in Scorpio. Ah, yes. My brother committed suicide. Sudden loss. Pain, grief, terror. Confrontation with severe mental illness. Confrontation with my own beliefs about death, purgatory, hell, the afterlife, the bardo states, the soul’s journey, reincarnation…

That was rough.

But you know what? Through all the grief and loss, and everything I watched my family go through, I expanded into some of the most important and fundamental beliefs and truths of my life thus far.

I confirmed that I was officially done with Christianity, yes, but that rather than being in the nihilist-atheist binge I’d been on for several years, my mind had been opened to something more vast, and more meaningful.

Through the many synchronicities of my brother’s death (oh, there were so many totally improbable and fucking strange things that happened to show me how deeply we are all connected), my exposure to Buddhist beliefs about death and dying, and they ways it clarified to me that I have to do exactly what I want to do in this life rather than what others expect of me…

…through experiencing little cosmic giggles and the ways random people in my life showed up…and the ways I saw family members clinging onto their own beliefs and spewing some pretty hateful stuff…

…through recognizing with full bodied awareness just how short and precious life is…

…I was suddenly free. Free to move through the world with the spaciousness that comes only when you truly understand that you are on this planet to self-actualize. Not to play by rules and social standards that make no sense to you. I realized the best thing I could do was live my life the way I wanted to, and to figure out how to do that, because my brother never got to…

…and I realized that in so many ways, my brother’s death was one of the most incredible gifts I could have ever received.

The gift of life through death. That’s Jupiter in Scorpio.

Sounds great, yeah?

Well, it kinda is. BUT! Still…who likes to go through that kind of change? Ok, maybe some do. Parts of me do! Not to say that I like it when people I love die. No, not at all. But when I recognize I’m once again going through a death-journey, there’s a part of me that says “ah-HA! Time to learn some more,” and I lean in.

I have to keep that in mind when I’m in the barrel of the Scorpio wave, being tossed around. I have to remember to laugh…

 

And there it is again. That image of Jupiter belly laughing. But this time, it’s as he gathers up the courage of curiosity, the centeredness of belief, and the audacity to plunge into the underworld on a quest to learn what lies at the heart of it this round.

Sometime last week, as I moaned and groaned via text to my AstroSupport Team (and, by the way, that’s totally a name I just made up for two dear friends with whom I have an ongoing group text thread), about being able to feel this sensitive area of my chart being constellated. What was their advice?

JUST HAVE FAITH.

And it’s true.

We have an invitation to fall into the depths. No doubt some of us are just being taken there. But what holds us when we fall? What do we believe in?

So for this retrograde period, in effect until July 10, you might want to review your beliefs about death, the afterlife, sex, sexuality, your most intimate relationships, your emotional self-reliance, and any hidden parts that start to emerge.  Face your fears, remember to laugh, and then after July 10, begin to integrate what you’ve learned as the foundations of your new belief system.\

No biggie, right?

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Virgo Full Moon: Presence & Flow

 

Full Moon exact on March 1, 2018 at 4:51pm Pacific Time
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Today’s Virgo Full Moon, which highlights the Virgo-Pisces axis feels like a quiet moment of integration amidst the past few weeks of what has been an emotionally turbulent roller coaster for some. February’s eclipse window brought a lot of unresolved business to the forefront. Yet it all seems like just a dream right now…doesn’t it?

That’s Pisces for ya.

Now, I have to make a little disclaimer. Do I do that a lot? Perhaps that’s a device of my writing style, but it’s also a way to keep it a little more honest. That last eclipse on February 15 was smack dab on top of my South Node, which is a karmic hotspot. Actually, I’ve been dancing in a big ol puddle of karmic hotsprings since the August eclipses. So when I say “emotionally turbulent roller coaster” I am very much speaking to my personal experience, as I found a whole lotta unresolved emotions — or better yet, emotions I thought I’d resolved but found out I hadn’t — flowing to the surface all at once (seriously – ALL of them. At once!). That experience seems to be echoed by many around me, but not all.

It’s always fascinating to become so attuned to your own triggers, and yet unable to stop the emotional response when they happen. To be able to observe and feel as your body goes into shock responses from events that passed so long ago, but not stop them with rational thinking. To have to just say, “yes, my self, my love… all those bad things have in fact happened. But you know what? You got through it. That’s over now. What if you stop focusing on what you have to lose and instead imagine all that you have to gain?”

Ah, there’s the inspiration. The faith. The drive to figure out how to DO the thing. That’s what Virgo does. It figures out how to get the damned thing done.

This Full Moon feels like a detoxifying agent. A time for purification. More than that, though, it feels like a time for digesting and assimilating and…well…laughing. Release! Surrender. There’s the Pisces. And we have Venus, Mercury, Chiron and Neptune all joining the Sun in Pisces. There’s a dissolution happening. And with Jupiter trining Venus, there’s a sense of reverie — of bringing our memories and our longings together in our bodies to experience the bittersweetness of life.

The Virgo, though. That’s all about digestion and assimilation. Virgo is associated with the intestines, those many feet of innards through which everything we consume travels, being slowly digested and taken apart, assigned tasks, put to further use for the good of our entire being (that’s the Pisces). Virgo is super task oriented. And hey — hasn’t the gut been recently deemed the “second brain”? Virgo’s pretty brainy. There’s a lot of fine detail going into those processes, and Virgo wants to figure out how all of that works. Pretty magical, no?

Virgo energy has so much to do. So little time. Then it looks across the circle at Pisces, notices the abyss of totally undifferentiation that is the Piscean totality, and its eyes get big and it starts to hyper focus. Out of fear for what goes on in that abyss, maybe. But also out of a need to get it all done, to make all the disparate parts and all the tasks happen before the final breath takes hold.

There is a longing in Virgo. A longing to move from being special to being useful. A longing to contribute. To serve. To get it right, to make it perfect.

There’s so much integrity in that process. But it can also be distorted when we forget that all of the cosmos is absolutely perfect in its imperfection. That ultimately we will have to let go, to surrender all that we have and everything we think we are in processes of death and rebirth both large and small. We exist in an infinitely loving universe, and ultimately we all go back to stardust, so…time to get to work.

What do we need to let go of to make room for our great work to commence — or continue? What emotional undercurrents that have long laid dormant have reawoken in the past few weeks, ready for release and purification? What have we learned from our patterns, and the patterns in the world around us, and how can we make use of those lessons?

Perhaps these are questions for reflection today. Regardless, time to bask in the flow…but also? Time to get shit done.

Have I said that enough yet this year? 😉

Cheers,

Amanda

 

New Moon in Aquarius: Island of Jewels

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Today’s New Moon/Solar Eclipse in Aquarius feels…auspicious? Draining. Enlightening? Exhausting. There’s a lot going on in the heavens now, and as above so below – a lot in the realm of humankind as well.

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Photo by Amanda; “Lust” from Crowley’s Thoth Tarot, “Island of Jewels” from the Secret Dakini Oracle

Aquarius is very much about humankind. In the tarot it is depicted as The Star, the figure that comes out of the aftermath of the Tower, or total egoic breakdown, with a sense of having been purified and stripped down. What happens when we’re purified and stripped down? A sense of calm. Centeredness. Being able to see objectively again after going through total deconstruction. Bringing what we’ve learned and what we see back to the tribe for the betterment of all.

My favorite depiction of the card comes from an oracle deck called The Secret Dakini Oracle. It’s called “Island of Jewels,” and depicts twelve jewels symbolizing the purest, most exalted forms of the signs of the zodiac arranged around a central crystal, representing the self. All of these gathered together yet floating in space as pure transmitters of celestial magnificence. Yet the jewels are in fact of the earth. Matter containing pure light, pure wisdom. The card speaks to the revitalization and realization of hopes and dreams that have been achieved through opening the inner eye and reaching a pinnacle of the envisioning process.

Aquarian energy at its best is totally tapped into the  inspiration, insight and limitless possibilities of the spirit. It is psychic in the sense that it can take all the information filtering in and synthesize it at speeds that are irrationally fast, putting visions of the future together in ways that non-Aquarian energies or people can’t quite understand. Aquarius sees. It sees possibilities and sometimes mistakes those possibilities for concrete truth. But we know that courses can change, even if they seem fated. We must still heed the cries of the visionaries among us, however. Honor the power and potency of that kind of vision.

As I’ve said many times now, this New Moon is somewhat of a chapter-closer from the eclipses last August. But that’s not entirely true. They are linked, but they are just part of the story. Today a seed is planted that is based on what we’ve learned since August, but that will be re-visited on July 31 with the final set of Aqua-Leo eclipses for this cycle (the next ones occurring around 2026).

For this New Moon, we have Venus in Pisces channeling in divine love, and Mercury in Aquarius reminding us to remember to question what we think we know, especially what we’re most stubborn about. The chance for revolutionary clarity is here, however.

There are two things I’d like to make very clear for this lunar cycle.

First: It’s time to remember your own multitudes. You are infinite. So much more than words and identities and structures. You are beyond concept and beyond mind. The mind is what has created this plane we exist in.

For this New Moon, we have the opportunity to sew seeds of change that make the best use of our personal brilliance at the collective level. We can see the island of jewels before us, and how magical a utopia we can build together. But it has to start within.

So call your consciousness home now. Invite back the parts of you that have left, be it due to traumatic fragmentation, depression, hunger, horror or loss, despair or just a random sudden jolt. Invite your essence to return to the core of your being. Welcome and breathe yourself in.  Imagine all of your energy bodies (there are layers of them wrapped all around you) full of the parts of you that have left over time, compact and cozy against your physical frame. Breathe in the fullness of you, whatever that means.

The second thing is this: It is important to also focus on the collective for this lunation. To let go of the avoidance and spiritual bypassing that also goes along with Aquarius. ‘Spiritual bypassing’ is often even done by those who do not consider themselves to be spiritual at all — it’s what happens when we avoid our emotions for any reason, avoid the dark places… avoid the reality that using the earth as a sewer is not ok… avoid the fact that continuing our rampant and ridiculous consumption of products coated in and made of life-killing plastic is not ok… accepting as fact that children are going to be killing children…. Over and over again…

Our collective way of life in Capitalist consumer culture has got to change — be it through us using our minds, hearts and intellects together to decide how it changes, or through dramatic breakdown as the earth and human-made systems that support us give way. Aquarian energy fully supports either of these methods of revolution. I know which one I choose. How about you?

Here’s the thing: our experience here on earth, as well as our technologies and the things that ail us, have been created by the mind, they can also be undone by the mind. But we have to be centered within ourselves to do that work. And we have to be centered within ourselves while also working together. We have to be warriors and revolutionaries of the heart.*

So for this New Moon Eclipse, make a wish or two, and take action. I’ll be right there with you.

*This is the myth of the Shambhala Warrior. You can watch this video to see a fantastic retelling of it.


<p><a href=”https://vimeo.com/191169785″>Joanna Macy on the Shambhala Warrior</a> from <a href=”https://vimeo.com/user1364093″>Chris Landry</a> on <a href=”https://vimeo.com”>Vimeo</a&gt;.</p>

 

Full Moon Eclipse: Gasms for the Greater Good

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Artist: Arthur De Pims

There’s so much floating around right now about this eclipse season and I highly encourage you to go look at your favorite astrologers and thinkers and see what they’re saying. I tend to try to get to the heart of the matter while looking at the collective, but I’m going to deviate this time just a little bit to focus instead on sex, resting assured that I’ve reminded you here and now that this is not the whole picture.  You should read other astrologers for their takes, too and pick what works for you!

Right now, a very simplistic but effective way to work with this Full Moon, and this eclipse season, is this: What trauma needs to be healed for you now, and in what ways can a return to the heart facilitate that?

Because it’s Aquarian trauma, we can bring in the theme of the collective. Of being an outsider. Being cast out for being different. Or just experiencing something so awful that we shut down. We fragment. We “go away,” and view our lives as if we were an outsider. Out of body, out of heart.

Because it’s Leo, we can bring in the theme of creative self-actualization that comes from the divine spark of heart genius that is YOU. The unique way you express divinity. We can bring in fun and joy. We can blend those things together to understand that the medicine right now has to do with creative energy.

More simplistic terms? Creative energy IS sexual energy. Leo is the strength that comes through learning how to channel lust and desire and fire and intuition and bring it to the surface through an orgasmic display of vision-driving artistic expression.

The result — be it a child, a song, a new arrangement of furniture, an outfit, a website, a new stroke of touch, or a dance move — not only conveys a vision to others, it inspires when it hits folks who are resonant with that energy. It ignites a flame. It draws us into our hearts and empowers us to learn to channel that energy in our own unique ways.

I sometimes go back and forth about focusing on sex in these writings. The “why” has something to do with the fact that I know many of us have periods in life where we struggle with sex for many reasons. Perhaps the biggest is because so many have experienced sexual trauma.

If I’m being honest, however, I sometimes shy away from talking about sex because I know there are some who long for sex and do not have it in the ways they want it. It brings up twinges of self doubt, loathing or sadness about not having a partner. So sex-centric writing is loaded. I’ve been in so many of those phases in my life, and I never want to ping that struggle in another human.

But here’s the thing. Leo is one of the most sexual and sex-focused signs of the zodiac. Perhaps second only to Scorpio. And to leave out sex as heart medicine is doing a disservice.

I also happen to be someone who often professes a belief that more consensual sex would probably help to save the world. Sex and touch, y’all. I’m telling ya.

Why? Well, consensual, enthusiastic sex is fucking amazing. When we explore it from a place of presence within ourselves, it teaches us about our bodies, how our energy runs, what feels good, what feels bad. That can be done with or without a partner.

When we explore it with a partner we can learn about ourselves in communion and connection. We learn about pleasure and serving and asking and giving and receiving and taking. We learn about merging.

And then we can also explore it with more than a partner. Through classes and workshops and support groups. Or through group sex, swinging sex, orgy sex, non-monogamous sex. Threesomes, foursomes and moresomes.

Or through taking the time to better understand how we are connected to so much more than ourselves and our partners by the way we engage sexuality and sex, but also by how we shun it, shame it and ridicule the practices that others love and experiment with behind closed doors. The ways we let our own traumas inform our projections and the ways we judge others when they simply take steps towards being who they are.

We get to be creative with sex and our sexual expression. We get to hone it and own it. We also get to reject or abstain from the act of sex as well — for any reason we choose.

I’m hyper aware that there is so much insidious, deep and entrenched sexual trauma in our society. It is so overwhelming.

It’s also coming forward in big ol heaps and gasps now. In the ways people are saying “if THAT’s sexual assault, I’ve been assaulted dozens of times!” (Yeah, that’s the sad, sad point). It’s coming forward as we see the nuance of the labels of predator and victim and are being asked to maturely re-imagine our systems of punishment. It’s coming forward as people step up to tell their stories — about assault and lack of access to care and abuses of power and failures of human decency all mottled together into a big ball of fucked-upedness that seems impossible to unravel.

We pit all of this against our knowledge of history  — which shows thousands of years of rape as an ingrained and inevitable part of society — and we slowly recognize just how horrendously out of our hearts we often have to be in order to deal with it all. How much we’ve been forced out of our hearts and bodies through the distortion of sexual energy over and over again. Lifetime after lifetime.

The Leo medicine of this total lunar eclipse and the 18 month cycle we’re in is a return to love, a return to the heart, a return to joy when and where we’re able, and a willingness to embrace each other. That’s the big picture.

The smaller picture, for now, for tomorrow (the eclipse/Full Moon is exact hat 5:27am Pacific Time) just might be — for you, for me — fun, celebratory, creative and enthusiastic sex. Sex within some kind of intentional container. Whether that’s a ritual or just a statement. For example? “Right now I’m going to celebrate everything I’ve been through in the past six months.”

Because, you see, this eclipse cycle is directly connected to whatever was going on for you — and within the collective — last August.

If this feels true, or fun, or relevant or empowering, go for it.

If not, that’s cool too. You do you.

Intentionality is key, however, because we always want to have some kind of container for magic. Sex can just as easily be used unconsciously or consciously as a way to avoid intimacy, dispel energy, and frenetically and compulsively drain ourselves of any hint of who we might be down at our core. Passion can distort. That’s not an inherently bad thing, but as always awareness is key.

Regardless, this Full Moon eclipse propels us into a two week eclipse window. It’s a blood moon. Can you imagine quieter times, hundreds of years ago, walking through the dead of night and looking up to see the moon had turned red? Feels eerie. Feels menacing. Feels like a portent for some thing yet to be understood.

There’s a reverence that arises when we contemplate the ways thousands of years of human evolution have been projecting that kind of meaning onto these lunations.

Partaking of what grounds and centers you now can go a long way to helping you creatively engage any shifts and changes that might come your way in the next two weeks, particularly if you have planets or angles near 11 degrees of the fixed signs.

As always, let me know if you have questions.

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An Announcement

The long version (you can scroll down for the short version at the end if you’d like):

So…it’s officially been one year since I left steady-consistent-paycheck land to venture out more fully into the world of self-employment. In some ways the choice was forced, but in other ways I felt very strongly that putting all of my energy into the work I do with astrology and depth psychology needed to happen. I’d been spreading myself way too thin for too long trying to do client work AND grant writing, and the situation in the world had gotten too dire for me to do anything other than focus on trying to create change.

lilithFor those of you who don’t know – I spent my time in grad school studying how apocalyptic imagery affects the psyche, and specific ways we can work through the overwhelm of living in apocalyptic times. Becomes more and more relevant every day, somewhat unfortunately.

Making the leap into full-fledged self-employment was the most exhilarating leap I’ve ever taken, and the combination of total terror and absolute freedom did a lot to fuel me through the fears.

I can fairly safely say that the biggest fear I had was that I would have to face a major health crisis while having zero financial safety net.

And…well, THAT happened. Fucking A, Universe.

But it worked out! And I’m still here. Still self-employed, still building a business and still fully dedicated to doing work that I feel matters. I’m incredibly lucky in so many ways.

I’m aware at some level of what I’ve given up in order to live on a very versatile income doing 1:1 client work, teaching and writing, but those are choices I’ve made and they continue to be worth it.

I recently heard someone refer to themselves as a community-made woman. Not a self-made woman. Community made. That really resonated for me. Because I know and own that the fire, drive and passion (and at times total unwillingness to look at “reality” or my bank account) that have gotten me here are the kind that stem from finding a life’s work and having the courage to follow that call. Mostly incredible. Sometimes totally isolating and full of existential dread.

But I also have So. Much. Support. In all kinds of ways. From friends and family who see what I’m trying to do and step in in so many ways all the time, but also from clients who participate in and help shape the work I do, and who keep coming back for more.

So at this point in my life, I’m regaining my balance after year one brought the health crisis I so feared— thanks so much to people in my life who said “holy shit, girl, how can I help? we got you!” — and my momentum after cancer and surgery knocked me out of orbit for a while.

But more than that, I’m focusing on building. And I’m focusing on a new project that I’m really excited about.

There’s been a thread going through my life in the past year, as I’ve dealt with what happened to my own body, but also as I’ve seen what’s going on on the world stage in regards to women’s bodies in general and sexual assault and anger, rage and grief. This thread has been repeatedly bringing up the mythology of Lilith — the original ‘wife of Adam’ who was cast out because she didn’t wanna submit. I mean, it’s way more complicated than that. And perhaps that’s the point.

So! It’s time to write a book. I’m gonna be writing one alongside astrologer Sarrah Christensen. The topic will be Lilith (MOST likely just Black Moon Lilith, but we’ll see) in astrology.

I think the part I’m most excited about is that we want to focus on the applicationsLilith art 6 of working with Lilith in the natal chart — through embodied, experiential shadow work that focuses on helping people integrate the parts of themselves that they have disowned. With or without astrology.

The contents of the book will likely shift and change over time, but our four main focuses are: mythology; what’s happening on the world stage; Lilith in individual natal charts/stories; applications of the work.

In order to get this done — hopefully within this year, but I know better than to strictly adhere to concrete timelines with stuff like this — I’m hoping to expand my Patreon base. Because I am indeed a community made woman, and having the level of consistent support a monthly paycheck provides is *everything*.

Patreon is a platform that allows folks to support artists. The idea is that the world needs creative types to be able to create because art and creativity fuel the visionary thinking and dreaming that helps us to progress as a culture…

… but the world also doesn’t support the necessity of creativity in ways that ensure creators have access to…oh, you know, food and shelter.

But better than that, it allows creators to give incentives for support. I love this because it holds me accountable to the work. My supporters have expectations based on the level they sign up at. AND they get guidance. They get to participate at whatever level they want.

Or — and this is probably most relevant for those of you who aren’t into astrology, consciousness shifting or depth psychology — they can just support me with a financial pledge and then ignore the rest.

So this is a longwinded way of bringing you up to speed. I’ll still be doing 1:1 sessions, classes and workshops, New and Full moon writings…and the hours of administrative work it takes to be a full-time soul worker astrologer type. But everything will be revolving around this project for a while.

So if you want to and are able…please do consider becoming a Patron. Just to support me. Or to begin to participate in your own journey a little more fully or differently as well.

Or don’t! If you’re interested in the work but not able or willing to do the financial backing thing, I also really really love talking about this material and would love to just be able to give voice to it and share insights with you.

Thanks for reading

The Short Version:

I’m gonna be writing a book! Which is really exciting. I’ll be working with fellow astrologer Sarrah Christensen, and we’re going to be focusing on understanding Lilith in the natal chart. But more than that, it’s going to allow me to develop a more structured process for doing shadow integration work — that is, helping folks to reclaim and work with the parts of themselves they’ve disowned, denied, repressed. The parts that are angry, hating and grieving. I’m looking for support of my Patreon campaign to ensure my ability to get this work done.

Capricorn New Moon: Endurance & Legacy

Tuesday, January 16th at 6:17pm Pacific Time, we’ll have the first New Moon of the year — and it’s one that packs a lot of intention-setting punch. Taking place in Capricorn alongside Venus, the Sun and Pluto, with Saturn, Mercury and Black Moon Lilith also inhabiting the sign, we have a chance to commit to goals and structures that support the legacy we’re leaving on this earth.

Here’s the thing, y’all. I haven’t taught either of my “Astrology of 2018” classes yet, but I’m pretty sure the sweeping theme for the year is: Time to get shit done.


archeontarotuniverseThis New Moon is a fantastic one to use for intention setting that supports that goal in practical and concrete ways. And because we do have so much Capricorn energy involved, I think I can say once again what I say all the time but with more gravity (and hopefully just as much love):
There is no more time to waste in our avoiding/ dismissing/ ignoring/ rationalizing/downplaying efforts. We’re past even the make or break point in our collective evolution. At this moment we need the absolute commitment of every soul with even the foggiest awareness that our society is not going good places, and we need them to commit to concrete, real world change. Now.

Committing to concrete, practical, real world creation is exactly what Capricorn is best at.

Capricorn and its ruling planet, Saturn, are both about the structures that support a society. Capricorn is very much about our root, and our root chakra, and what allows us to stand upright from a place of groundedness in this world. It is the energy of feeling safe and secure in the world and building accordingly.

The most basic support of a society is found within us — it is our bones, which are associated with Capricorn. Bones are strong, y’all. They provide full structural support to the mysteries of anatomy and allow us to move through this world. Capricorn is also associated with teeth, the part of our skeletal system that is even stronger than bones. Bones and teeth guarantee our survival. Without them, our security needs are much more difficult to get met. Same thing with the societal depictions of Capricorn structures. Necessities such as trash collection and sewage systems. Both individuals and societies need infrastructure, and Capricorn is where we recognize the mastery needed to build these infrastructures, and we do the hard work of getting it done.

Capricorn is also about legacy. What is the legacy we will leave on this earth, as individuals and as a society?

In the past few years we’ve been experiencing Saturn’s transit through Sagittarius. We’ve been asked to restructure and reexamine our beliefs and truths. Now Saturn has entered Capricorn and we’re being asked to (re)build based on what we found there. In Capricorn, we consolidate our beliefs and truths into the institutions and infrastructures that give form to society. Transitioning those beliefs into manifest reality is hard. Capricorn loves that shit. But that building has to come from a place of meaning. That’s where we get the heart energy to drive all that building. It has to mean something. It needs a legacy attached to it — a reason. Reason that gives integrity.

As meaning gets distorted, integrity degrades. We clear land and build buildings that are consumed by mold within a year (see: Seattle’s housing boom).

So there’s the rub. And the rub is this: Sagittarius is associated with natural law. It’s where we get to know truths and our own beliefs hopefully based in resonance with what is best for the earth and all beings in it. Natural law has a lot to do with core values of giving, sharing, connection and interdependence. According to natural law, to everything there is a season, a reason. When we are tapped into the truth that we are all connected beings on individual journeys we remember that love and respect must be always at the core of all things.

Ideally speaking, then, in Capricorn, we build with those truths in mind. There is power in that realization.

And Capricorn is very much about power. The power of the heart to fuel the bones into mastering the Great Work.

Or the power of the material world to claim our psyches and distort our survival fears into control mechanisms that consolidate power in the hands of the few. And my oh my how we’ve seen the ways those in power resist when their power — in its corrupt and distorted form — is threatened. That’s the lesson of Pluto’s 22 year journey through Capricorn (we’re about half way through, folks).

Tools such as tarot help us to understand these principles more deeply. In the traditional tarot deck, the Devil card, which corresponds with Capricorn,  is depicted as two humans standing with chains around their necks and wrists. They are weighted down by their chains, strapped to the toils of the physical realm. Silly thing is, the chains are all loose. They could take them off.

Capricorn can toil. It can get mired in hard work. It can get attached to the ego identity of being The One Who Works Harder Than Anyone Oh Woe Is Me. But those chains also remind us that we do have bodies and we do have to tend to them.

Another tarot deck depicts the Devil as a figure manipulating the strings of a marionette – who has a pair of scissors in its pocket for easy clippings. Externalization of power through social conditioning. That’s a loaded Capricorn sentiment.

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From the Cosmic Tribe Tarot

My personal favorite is the image depicted in the Cosmic Tribe Tarot. It is that of a green bodied, orange haired god Pan, tongue sticking out, playing on the earth. With multiple symbols of sex and penetration, it reminds us of the fun of the material form, and the great gift of mastering sexual/creative energy for movement and manipulation on the earth. In this version, we see a Devil stripped of Judeo-Christian bullshit (sorry, it’s not all bullshit, but I’m submersed in an unapologetic writing frenzy), and whittled down to the reminder — we GET to play here on this earth in these meat suits. We get to revel in the pleasures of the body and the material world. We get to feel our primal instincts rising up to meld with our beautiful conscious minds through the vehicles of our bodies and build really cool, significant, respectful and beautiful structures as monuments to what we love and celebrate and need and desire.

Pan reminds us to play in the pleasures of the flesh.

But we also have to respect. Our bodies as home (that’s the Capricorn-Cancer axis) and our earth as mother (aaaaand that’s the Capricorn-Cancer axis as well).

We also get to remember that if we get stuck in all that — if we whittle all of our existence down to JUST the material world, just this one element (earth!), and forget the meaning behind it all, we will fall into chains. We will fall into fear. We will feel the gravity of Saturn’s forced maturation process.

In the meantime, however, we rationalize and justify using the bones and skin of other humans for the sake of the progress of our institutions — which are based in conquest, oppression and blood. That’s shadow Capricorn.

Because the physical, mechanistic world is NOT everything.

Amazing how our culture’s worship of the material world exists alongside our total inability to accept that we are using said material world as a sewer and other humans as slaves. Even more amazing how difficult it is for individuals to recognize that they can be both good-hearted and still complicit in this system.

Capricorn denial is hard and entrenched and full of long, deep shadows based in self-judgment, criticism and loathing. We then consolidate those shadows and fears into an external figure — a Christian Devil. And we externalize our redemption process into an external savior. Jesus. Our family and friends. Our bank account.

So! What does right power and right responsibility look like? How do we use all of that Capricorn integrity and commitment to hard work sustainably?

It starts within, but within a framework or mission to serve. To build something. To leave a legacy on this earth that is reflective of our values. We take responsibility for our commitment to fixing the mess we’re in as individuals, but individuals within a society. Which means there’s help! Hooray!

So for this Capricorn New Moon, it’s time to set an intention that is in resonance with the long term goals for your life.

Don’t know what they are? Use this cycle to figure it out or make progress in that adventure.

Got other, more pressing concerns? The biggest fears we have often stem from a fear of not having our basic survival needs met. It is ok to focus on that. If your body, housing, financial situations are making you feel afraid for your survival, you can and should attend to that. Fit them into the umbrella of the larger picture: Got body stuff going on? This is a GREAT New Moon to focus on building routines that support the health of your bones and body. Got mental health stuff going on? Extend to yourself an offer to practice self care for the next month. Commit. See what works. Come back. Revise. Try again.

Examine the ways your life’s legacy is impacting the world for future generations. Try to imagine impacts and consequences. Accept, love and recognize yourself without judgment for the good and the bad.

There is a finality to Cappy, a grouchiness. Once we’ve cultivated the commitment to change, recognizing how long it can take can be depressing! So we have to remember to PLAY. Like Pan!

Remember to nurture.

There’s a wild card here, though — that’s important to note. This New Moon kicks of two lunar cycles that have…

…drum roll please…

Eclipses!

Yes, we’re entering another eclipse season. Remember the last one? It was in August, and therefore the coming weeks will likely refer back to whatever it was going on in your life then, especially if you have planets or angles in your chart in mid-to-late Fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Aquarius, Scorpio).

Which brings us to the final (for today) lesson about Capricorn. I touched on it a bit earlier, but it’s worth re-stating. Capricorn is very much about power. Because you bet yer sweet ass those institutions and infrastructures you’re building hold power, just as your bones form the framework for your body’s movement.

You get power, sure, but then how do you use it? You use it in ways that benefit society and others. You have to be grounded, rooted and secure in your understanding of natural law and how it can and should and does feed into human laws.

In Capricorn, power has a lot to do with our ego’s attachment to the structures. To the ways things are. To the status quo and the conditioning it takes – physical, emotional, societal – to keep those structures in power. We dig in, thinking we are defined by our Great Work. We dig in, thinking that all that has meaning is whether our grandchildren carry our name and our money. We take personal affront when our legacy is dismantled to make way for something new — even if that new thing is more reasonable. Sometimes Capricorn wants to consolidate power. There is a time and a place for that, but wisdom demands that we get clear on the costs.

It demands that we get clear on ways we can be a good person participating in systems that make us complicit in enslaving others and destroying our ecosystem. It demands we accept we might be wrong, and that’s OK. We accept it with maturity and course correct. Capricorn brings the endurance of commitment.

In Capricorn,we can also access the power to change those things. But we might have to make adjustments and let go. This eclipse season can help us understand what needs to go and what needs to be rebuilt.

So. What do you want to put your energy into?

Use this New Moon to get clear about that.
HINT: Don’t get attached to what you’ve created. Let it go. You are not that thing, you are not defined by it.

And going back to the last eclipse season: How is that divine spark within you doing? How can you offer it up to the collective?

What will be on your tombstone? Ah. There’s a great Capricornian visual metaphor.

Remember: The wisdom of Capricorn helps us understand the value of incremental change and work – there are no shortcuts. So set your path, plan for milestones (and the celebration of them!) and be flexible. Adapt and grow. But remember your values. And that growth has limits and has to be calculated and in harmony with surrounding systems.

There is an incredible joy that comes from a job well done and from viewing or participating in a finished product. Some of the work we have to do now will be finished after we’re gone, but it is important to remember that joy. That’s where we get some of the fuel for willpower!

 

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New Moon in Sagittarius: From Spark to Flame

Here we are… the last New Moon of 2017. The last New Moon before Saturn shifts into Capricorn. A New Moon that to me is starting to feel like a big, galactic burst of hope before the real work begins.

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Sagittarius is the burst of hope and light that comes after the underworld journey of Scorpio. We emerge from the torrents, having been tossed around, dismembered, diseased, stripped bare and liquified, and we face the light again. We breathe in. Our hearts explode and we realize the TRUTH!

And then after Sagittarius comes Capricorn…where we take our beliefs and truths and concretize them into the laws and structures that govern our society. We rise to the occasion of committing to the Great Work. We finally understand how to master the material world, and we build.

But…Real Work? Great Work? What a Saturn-in-Capricorn thing to say! It’s all relative, isn’t it? And “The TRUTH?” What? What kind of hubris is it that allows one to think they know The Truth?

But, really. That “Real Work” thing. So many have been really working for so long now… what does it even mean to say “now the real work begins”?

Well, my friends, I am using a bit of dramatic license here. But I’m sure many of you can feel the truth of it. You feel the gravity of this moment in history down to your core. And to those who feel that truth, I’ll take it one step further:

Every time I think of Saturn’s journey through Capricorn in the next three years, one word comes to mind: Reckoning.

In its most mundane form, the word reckoning simply refers to settlements, billing, accounting.  Calculating. Reconciling.

But it’s also a word that has strong undertones. All kinds of Judeo-Christian threads run through the word, its meanings and our reactions to it. Ripples of retribution, punishment, accounting for past mistakes, being seen wholly for who we are and what we’ve done. Judgement. Fear. Pain.

In the Tarot, The Last Judgment card refers to reckoning, and to total and complete paradigm shift. The transition from the Old Testament to the New Testament. From an earth-centered model of the universe to a sun-centered one to the realization that we are infinitesimally tiny specks of nothing (or light? Or carbon? Or love?)  in a universal landscape so huge we cannot even conceptualize it.

Astrology is an extraordinarily powerful thing. Astrologers hold extraordinary power. Because of this, we have to learn to be impeccable with our words. That’s the Gemini side of the Sagittarius-Gemini polarity. We have to learn to communicate truth while understanding that the very words we use ripple out and help to create the future we proclaim to be “predicting” or speaking to or guiding towards or providing insight into. Words are incredibly potent conveyors of meaning. They are meticulously arranged carriers of archetypal energy.

Because of this, I have to think it through when I use words like “reckoning.” Or before I say things like this:

We are standing on the precipice of something so vast and great right now. As a culture, as a species, as inhabitants of a shared earth. We’ve been here at this precipice for a while now, but our concept of time warps our understanding of reality. We feel the pressure of this void we’re facing – the abyss in front of us. A vast unknowing. What comes after Capitalism? After institutionalized sexual harassment, assault and misogyny? What comes after the ecosystem collapses? Or nuclear war is waged by tantrumming men with buttons to push?

What comes after this moment in time?

How can we ever deem to know?

We can’t. But we can actively be present with our choices, emotions, feelings, thoughts and experiences in this moment. We can re-commit to ourselves, to each other, to love, sharing, and healing. Through reclaiming discernment, reconciliation and judgment without pain, punishment and shame we can navigate this paradigm shift consciously and with intention. We can harness the strength of not knowing the concrete manifestations of our future while acknowledging cycles and history and context and the wisdom of the stars which help us understand what themes are arising while giving us the freedom to choose how we interact with those themes.

So what have you learned during Saturn’s time in Sagittarius since late 2014? How have your beliefs and truths been challenged and tested and revised and let go of and re-committed to?

How are your new beliefs going to serve as a guidepost for you as you commit to the hard work that needs to be done in the coming years? What spark of light is going to guide you? How can you learn to feel that spark and where it resides within your being? How can you allow it to grow until you can feel it with your whole heart, and then your whole body and your whole being so you can always tap into it, even when it gets dark?

And where does “the dark” fit into that as well?

Honesty. Struggle. Triumph. Faith.

Where have you lost faith, and where has faith grown? What does that word even mean?

And what has transformed for you in the past month? Since that last New Moon on November 17? What still needs to be released and flushed down the drain in the remaining hours of this lunar cycle? What desires have we finally exhausted enough to just say goodbye to permanently but with a commitment to remembering in ways that remind us of our stories and their lessons without drawing us back in to old scripts? How can we drop our addiction to the drama of retelling our trials over and over again?

I usually send out a guide for the New Moon. With open sentences and suggestions for oils and stones and altar items and all kinds of left brain goodness. For this New Moon, I will tell you what I’m going to do as an example and I’m going to encourage you to use your right brain. What does your intuition tell you you can do now to nurture the spark of hope within your heart, even if it’s dormant, latent or dim?

I myself am going to burn sage throughout my home. I’m going to light candles and take deep breaths. I’m going to sit in a bath where I’ll add a salt mixture a dear friend made for me at the Scorpio New Moon, and I will intend to let go of the last traces of what I’ve been working to release this cycle. I’ll fill in the empty spaces with celebratory energy and memories of the incredible things that have happened in the past month. I’m going to breathe into the spaces within me that feel the bittersweetness of living through “the end times” and that feel grief for how sad it is that we cannot seem to get our collective shit together.

I’m going to call to mind the ocean. Quiet valleys. Prairielands. Mountaintops. The blackness of space. The unfathomable infinity of spiral galaxies and alternate dimensions, lower worlds and upper worlds. So that I can remember all that exists without us. So that I can feel that truth.

I’m going to walk the edges of my own faith as if it were water lapping at my feet, recognizing that nothing is static. Everything ebbs and flows.

Then I’m going to pull the plug on the bathtub, let it all drain out, and then cuddle up with my partner knowing that I am committed to doing the work I’m here to do on this earth. And that some of you are on that path with me. And there is such power within us…

The Details: New Moon on December 17 at 26-27 degrees Sagittarius; 10:30pm Pacific

Conjunct Venus, Saturn and the Galactic Center; Square Chiron; Trine Uranus

You can read more about creating your own New Moon Ritual here: https://aquarianspirals.com/2017/06/20/self-generated-new-moon-ritual-v2-0/

 

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